Sunday, February 17, 2013

Well... - Molly

I was sitting in sacrament meeting this morning when the doctor called.

It was about 10:40am.

It was way too early to have gotten a phone call.

I rushed out of the chapel and let the nurse tell me the news.

"Congratulations. You are pregnant."

Positive.

Tears immediately filled my eyes. 
I was a bit surprised at my level of emotions.

I ducked into a bathroom only to have a small knock behind me.

It was Jason.

I opened the door and gave him a big smile and yet he was still unsure of what I was smiling about.

I reassured him.

"It worked." 

It worked.

This could actually be it.

I realized that it is not the worst I am fearing.
It is the best I am afraid of.

I have been in these shoes before.
And I am not waiting for the other shoe to drop, it's more like I am waiting for the shoes to stay on.

I am not sure what is more scary.
 That I could, we could go through all the pain and trauma again?
Or that we might actually get our wish?

One step at a time.

Tuesday I go in again for more blood.
My HCG has to increase by 66% at least.

So for now, it's a small win, but it's still a win to me.





17 comments:

CAISA said...

LOVE. congrats. prayers will keep coming your way.

Megan Brink said...

I still have tears from reading the announcement on IG. Your story has truly touched me from the day I started following you on IG and I feel blessed to know you. You are such a wonderful person and I pray that this is your happy ending. Well, beginning actually. :)

Josh Bingham said...

What wonderful news! I am so happy for you guys. WOOOO HOOOOO!!!

Adele said...

Joyful news!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

ElleTee said...

That is such wonderful news, congratulations Molly!

Mel said...

So happy for you. I know what its like to be afraid of this. We're 18 weeks along with our CCRM miracle... but I still have days where I get really scared. I always thought I"d be happy if I got a good beta... well then it became after the 6wk u/s, the 8wk u/s, our 10wk ob/doppler, then getting through the 1st rimester, then it was our us at 14wk... and well I hope by our next u's at 20 wks that I can really breathe. I will be praying for you!
Mel

Sara said...

Congrats! Many prayers being sent your way that this is your sticky bean!!

Devon T. said...

You just made an awesome day even better. Congratulations! Focusing all thoughts and prayers and goddess energy to you and baby belly (to Jason and Penny too). Love ya!

Terri said...

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!

I'm on your side too. I'm waiting for a different miracle but none the less a specific miracle.

HHHHHHalleluja!

yes

peace

Terri

Terri said...

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

HAAAAAlleluja!

Oh yes - the Lord and the rest of us are on your side...for this miracle.

I want my own miracle - it is a little different - our journeys have been similar.

I will not give up hope.

Don't you

yeah!

great video

love
Terri

Becca's Blog said...

So happy for you sweet Molly! We will be praying for you guys!

Adele said...

Molly, would you share your Instagram name with me? I'd love to keep up with you there! I'll be more than happy & willing to let you follow me as well. Warning....I'm kinda boring!! LOL. :) Happy Monday!

Laura said...

Great news so far. I pray that this is just the beginning of the good news that will be coming your way!

Charleston Hokie said...

The smallest victories are the most special. Congratulations to you and your husband.

Anonymous said...

Congratulations!! One day at a time. Will be sending positive thoughts and prayers.

Tanika Rice said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!! I am so happy for you and your family!!! <3 <3 Many prayers for the long road ahead!

RC Cola said...

yea, we are praying.