Grateful and Thankful Day 30, 29 & 28 - Molly

Day 30:

I am grateful and thankful that December is upon us and the year is coming to a close.
2012 was not what I thought it would be.
Though there are MANY things to be grateful and thankful for,
I cannot help but think that I could have been delivering a baby girl in a few weeks.
Sigh.
I am still not pregnant.

But there is something to look forward to in December.

My wonderful husband has decided to take me somewhere on our "due date".
He wants us to "do" something different, something fun.

So he's taking me to New York City.

We have plans to see "Elf" on Broadway, the Rockettes at Radio City, eat steaks at Peter Luger's, Italian at Eataly, hot chocolate at Serendipity, shopping on Madison and 5th Ave and....

CrossFit at CrossFit Gotham, Hell's Kitchen and 5th Ave (or Black Box).

We are so excited.

New York City in December, right before Christmas.

It's going to be perfect.

And it feels nice to have something to look forward to.

Any recommendations for places to eat, shop or see.....we would love them!


Day 29:

I am grateful and thankful for chapstick.
Colorado winters are very dry and my lips and skin pay the price.
So I invest in chapstick.
I have a few in my purse, one in my pocket and back-ups all over the house.
Jason and I cannot leave home without it.


Day 28:

Ever have a song that just made you work harder? Run faster? Lift heavier? Pedal faster? Make you cry? Smile? Or just make you feel better? Or when you can almost visualize the music video or movie montage with you in it?

The past few months I have had two songs that just have resonated with me. The beat, lyrics, everything - are just what I need to hear. Both songs make me think, bring tears to my eye, but also make me push myself to move forward, stay positive and see the bright side (even when it's hard not to).

Physical fitness always needs good music. Pandora is an amazing little app.

So today I am grateful and thankful for the power of music, especially these two songs.

Song #1: Ingrid Michelson - Keep Breathing

I listened to this song right after I lost Grace. When I was at my low point. This song reminded me that I had something to be grateful for. I was still breathing, and that was I had to to. I didn't have to worry about anything else at the moment, just to breathe in and out and I would be okay. This song still brings tears to my eyes, but it also helps me slow down, breathe and remember that I have something to be grateful and thankful for.

The storm is coming but I don't mind People are dying, I close my blinds All that I know is I'm breathing now
All I can do is keep breathing  
All we can do is keep breathing now 
Now, now, now
I want to change the world, instead I sleep  
I want to believe in more than you and me
But all that I know is I'm breathing   
All that I know is I'm breathing 
All I can do is keep breathing All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing  
All we can do is keep breathing  
All we can do is keep breathing  
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing 
All we can do is keep breathing   
All we can do is keep breathing  
All we can do is keep breathing now

Song #2: Shake It Out - Florence + the Machine

This is my favorite song to end my spin classes with right now. I just recently started to really listen. And this song empowers me. I feel that each day I have to wake up and shake it off. Shake off all of the hurt, pain, failures, mistakes, missed opportunities, bad feelings, frustrations, sadness, tears - all of it. I have to shake it off. I have to leave it all behind and move forward, start new. One of my favorite lines is "it's always darkest before the dawn". I am waiting for my dawn, my light, my time. And I will not drag all of this "stuff" around anymore. It will not define me. It will not encompass me. It does not own me. I will overcome it, somehow. I am tired of dragging it all around. My other favorite line is "so tonight I'm going to cut it all and then restart". My restart starts now. My last favorite line(s), "And I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't, so here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my road, and I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope.." 

I am ready. Ready for it all.