We got the biggest surprise of our life yesterday when I took a pregnancy test and it was positive (yes, you are reading that right). Trust me, as I was taking it I asked myself, "why do you keep wasting time & money".
Much to my surprise when I saw "YES" I almost passed out, then I almost vomited, cried, couldn't breathe- then I repeated. Same thing again. Holy shit.
I called Joe to tell him (I could barely talk- he also couldn't believe it and was so excited) then immediately put a call into my IVF nurse and awaited her call back with direction. I was a mess.
She sent me for blood work (this is the only way to really know) to test my HcG & Progesterone levels.
The day couldn't have gone any slower. I felt like I was in a dream (not gonna lie, I still do). What is happening here?! How could this be?
FINALLY a call back from my IVF nurse with the results & Dr. M's instructions- 4:30ish- it is all a blur. My HcG level was exactly where it should be, however progesterone was low. She started me on Endometrin last night and I will continue to take this 3 times a day until my ultrasound & blood check on Friday, 5/25. Hopefully the Endometrin will get my progesterone levels where they need to be.
I am still in haze of emotions and feelings. I mean after all this time & fertility? What about our freezer kids? What about the fact that this is so early? Something could go wrong? What if there is nothing in there? What will I do if this or that or whatever? I could go on and on and on. My husband said to me last night "I am going to tattoo on you 'One Step At A Time'" (because, duh, I was having a freak out).
Those of you who know me well know I don't do one step at a time. I am a planner. I am a multi-tasker, thinker, worker. I want things to be "just so".
I really thought about what he said & it is so true. For now, I promise to my husband to try & be much better at "One Step At A Time".
Happy Friday All (have a glass of wine for me) haha!