This means I am almost there. It makes me a little nervous, but the doctors have been so good about monitoring me that I am confident if any of my levels were to drop, they would know soon enough to get me stable again.
In other news, my relationship with food has become.......well, interesting. I want what I can't or shouldn't have. For example, I was at Costco today and all I wanted was a hot dog. Or tonight I would kill for some of my friend Caisa's cookie dough - she makes the best dough. Sandwiches (deli meat) sounds amazing and so does salami. Once and a while a sausage biscuit from McDonald's is on my mind.
Sigh. I could have bigger problems I know. Grateful for the small issues. I can deal with these.
I shudder the thought of drinking my fresh squeezed juice (apple, orange, mango, carrot and kale or some other concoction). My daily glass of coconut milk (I need the calcium) makes me want to hurl. I have to choke down my smoothies on the mornings I don't juice and nothing green and leafy even appeals to me.
It's all about comfort, homey goodness. Cheese, potatoes, pasta....oh my! I want grilled cheese (made with Velveeta), baked potatoes with cheese on top, cheese sticks, gnocchi, pasta salads, french fries, McDonald's hash browns, salt and vinegar chips - and yes, cookie dough.
So tonight I am spoiling myself. I am making EGGLESS COOKIE DOUGH. Thanks to a recipe from my good friend Candice, it is dough that you can only eat, not bake. Perfect.
|bakes potato with cheese and bbq sauce - lunch!|
I hope it is as good as it seems in my mind.
2 cups all purpose flour
1/2 tsp salt
3/4 cup unsalted butter, melted
1 cup brown sugar
1/2 cup sugar
1 T vanilla
4 T milk
Add chips, oats - anything you want.
Mix and enjoy!
|going to roll into balls and chill!|
What were your cravings or adversions???