tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5981381663510617382.post4378352490023120213..comments2021-02-09T22:47:49.475-07:00Comments on Still Not Pregnant: Please Welcome....STILL not pregnanthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00585848400165731666noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5981381663510617382.post-26996272331945807652016-03-27T20:31:15.535-06:002016-03-27T20:31:15.535-06:00Just keep walking.. what a good reminder!Just keep walking.. what a good reminder!Caroline @ In Due Timehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16261569299914107796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5981381663510617382.post-71388317240218692822016-03-16T14:22:55.153-06:002016-03-16T14:22:55.153-06:00Oh how these thoughts and feelings bring back memo...Oh how these thoughts and feelings bring back memories. DH and I were NT/NP for a year before we figured something might be up. I remember walking into my OB's office with so much positivity. I'm only 22. I ovulate every month. I have normal periods every 28 days. There couldn't possibly be something wrong. She sent me for an HSG and as soon as the procedure began and I saw the screen, I knew it was my tubes. Totally blocked. I had a botched appendectomy when I was 13. I have so much scar tissue in my abdomen and pelvic regions, I have to routinely have it removed to prevent other issues. I didn't think fertility would be one of them.<br /><br />I wanted to be a mom since I can remember. I couldn't wait to have a little girl to play dress up with and be called "mommy." The day I returned for my follow-up, I sobbed. I sobbed as she told me that it wasn't a death sentence. I sobbed when I returned home a told DH that I would never be a home. I told him to leave me. I sunk into a deep depression. My relationship almost failed. <br /><br />I met with three RE's, who all have me different advice. Try and repair the tubes/remove the scar tissue. Remove them. Tie them. I had to choose one because I have hydrosalpinges and the fluid is toxic. I chose to have a tubal ligation in September 2013. We did our first round of IVF in June 2014 and it (surprisingly) worked. We just completed our second fresh cycle in January.<br /><br />Never give up. Even when you feel like the entire world is against you and you think nobody is there. That God is punishing you for something horrible you did 15 years ago. That you're inadequate, your husband doesn't love you, or that you'll never be a mom. You will achieve your dreams. You will become a mom. It's okay to have bad days, avoid baby showers and birthday parties like the plague, and hide announcements on your FB feed. I remember sobbing to my MIL when she told me my SIL was pregnant. That's okay. You aren't a horrible person. Cry when you're sad. You're going to be okay and you're going to get through this. I wish I could hug you both.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com